#here have a chonken

[andnowanowl]

I was a dinosaur nut as a kid and wanted chickens to take care of as well. I was probably too young for the responsibility, but ever since moving back to my hometown, I've started taking care of the chickens that my dad and stepmom have. I wish they could free-range during the day a little bit and not be in the coop 24/7, but we have dogs.

My dad actually broke his leg a couple weeks ago, so I've been choring them full-time. Some of the more extroverted ones are okayish with me petting them. I've absolutely fallen in love with the little dorks. They've been helping distract me from being angry/devastated at the state of the world right now, as I'm fed up with humanity squabbling over shit for stupid and evil reasons.

[beardedmrbean]

It's Fat Bear Friday and all fans of chonky bears brought to us by explore.org will have no issues recognizing King Otis here in a flash back to last years chonkening.

Needed to take a moment to let the salmon digest

[blanketwithcheese]

Bit of a goofy Lil sad post about me but I'm started to feel like a nuisance to everyone around me so I'm using my resources

So a couple months ago, I lost my room to my cousin at my mom's house, and it caused a HUGE rift in the relationship I have with my mom, and it already wasn't great. And after a year, I finally got my room back because my cousin left for summer, and even though I knew I would most definitely lose my room again when I left for school, atleast it was something.

That was until today, where my cousin came back and now SHE is missing a room, so I asked my mom what the room situation was and she said "well (cousin) is upset because she wants the room and your upset because you say it's your room"

I- IM SORRY?! ok, so you're telling me that I'm crazy for thinking it's my room because when we did a house tour you tried to convince me to take this room, am I crazy for thinking it's my room after we AGREED on the reasons I should have this room, YOUR TELLING ME that I'm crazy for thinking it's MY ROOM because when the initial argument about this happened you threw (cousin) under the bus. Oh my bad I didn't know that being told a room is MY ROOM and then thinking it's MY ROOM makes me insane, I didn't know it made me absolutely bonkers, I didn't know it made me astronomically unhinged. MY BAD ILL TRY AND DO BETTER NEXT TIME.

So after that little sentence I chose this moment to try and understand what dear old MOTHER thinks because we clearly aren't on the same page, so I asked her "is it not my room, it seems we aren't on the same page, so what do you think" and after a bit of background and forth of trying to drag it out of her because she kept trying to avoid the question, she responded "I don't know the situation I don't know"

...I'm sorry, apologies, guilt ridden?

You. Don't. Know. I'm happy I finally got an answer (and ignoring that it took this long), but it shouldn't be this hard to understand, when we looked at the house we all collectively decided that I got backdoor room, (cousin) got average room, and the parents got the guest bedroom and the couch, what's difficult about that.

Oh but wait a minute, you know when a couple words ago I said we all collectively decided, yeah I'm starting to think that wasnt the agreement my mom and cousin had because, before I left there wasnt a bedframe in the room, when I come back all of a sudden there's a loft bed, before I left there wasn't a TV, when I came back there was a chonken TV, before I left there were random boxes and shelves that were just thrown in there for convenience, when I came back shocker they were all gone. And the list of differences just keeps on going, the fake vines that are hung up in places I can't reach, the mini fridge, the 10 boxes worth of stuff scattered. All of that, and you mean to tell me that my cousin did that ALL herself, even if there wasn't an initial deal done where she would get my room while I was gone, they most Definitely helped her move her stuff the other room and that hurts just as much I'd say.

Now I'm sure you might be thinking "well clearly your not gonna be there all the time do you just expect them to have a useless empty room while your gone?" And to that I say no, I would have been fine if they used my room as storage or and office while I was gone but they didn't do that, they completely gave my room to someone else without telling or asking me and then tried to make my cousin look bad and then make me look bad, they alienated me in a home I'm supposed to feel safe and protected in, they made me feel homesick in a place I'm supposed to call a home, they took away my privacy and safety.

And in the end what did my mother say when she offered to discuss the situation "I just want you to feel comfortable the next couple of time you come here" and it took everything in my power to not tell her that it's too late for me to ever feel safe around here or around her, because she created a broken environment for me that she can't fix.

I think that if my younger self who also had to live with the same cosin saw the situation I was in right now, she would beat out cousin to the ground, I never liked my cousin because she was annoying and my mom would never pay attention to me and only give her attention to my cousin (I mean and Facebook but I didn't understand that part at the time) and now look where we are, I no longer have a female role model in my life AND i wish I was dead because my mom gave more attention to my cousin. This was a long post, but oh well. I only have to be here for a couple more weeks, and I'm already 110% done